I don’t know how people do this. I don’t know what I’m doing. Most days I just feel like I’m failing. It’s the only emotion I can pick out of a thousand others that I’m experiencing at one time. The other days, I feel nothing at all. I’m just completely numb. There’s a lot to juggle. And I’m just tired.… Continue reading Juggling It All
It’s hard to believe it’s been one year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. Since life got turned upside down. Once again. On this day last year, we learned one of Ian’s tumor doubled in size. Something that had never happened previously. You can’t tell what’s inside a tumor from an MRI. Was it blood? Was it dead tissue? Neither… Continue reading One Year Since Brain Injury
Have you ever waited until the gaslight on your car came on before you actually got gas? Did you try to push the boundaries and see how far you could go before you became so close to being stranded on the side of the road? Do you ever feel like you do that to yourself? To your body? Your mind?… Continue reading Running On Low
We all have skeletons in our closets. A story about ourselves that we don’t read out loud to most people, if we read it to anyone at all. I’ve allowed my demons to take control, and I’ve made bad decisions as a result of it. I’m working through my issues consistently, and I’m recognizing what I need to do to… Continue reading I Am Enough (And So Are You)
It’s back to school time. New clothes, new shoes, new backpacks, new school supplies. The new school year means our kids are getting older. They have a new teacher (or teachers), maybe a new building, maybe they’ll make new friends. All of which means new experiences for the year ahead. My kids started back at school this past Thursday. My… Continue reading First Day of School Feelings
Well, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve opened this page to write. Writing for me is a release, and for a few weeks, it just felt like a task. I never want to feel like I “have” to write a post for my blog. It’s something I do for me. My hobby. My passion. Not another chore added to… Continue reading Ian Update & More
Getting a cancer diagnosis completely turns your world upside down. Whether it’s you or a loved one. Whether you are younger or older. And no matter what type of cancer it is or what grade. While we know we are so incredibly blessed that Ian’s brain tumors are not malignant, that doesn’t mean they still aren’t a concern. Just look… Continue reading Our New Normal
Ian turns 6 tomorrow. While the kids’ birthdays normally make me upset that they are getting older, this year I’m more appreciative to spend another year. With both of them. It was almost 10 months ago that I sat at Ian’s hospital bed side, praying that he would get to celebrate his 6th birthday. Holding his little cold hand, looking… Continue reading Ian’s 6th Birthday
Ian had an appointment this past Wednesday. It was with a group known as the brain clinic. This clinic is full of different doctors and specialists that all work together with kids who have had a brain injury to make sure the child is receiving all the support and services they need. The appointment went well- there are still areas… Continue reading All the Hats I Wear
Life is a journey. Each of us are on our own paths. Along the way, our paths cross others, and they separate. They lead us to things we love, and things we hate. And all the while, it helps us find ourselves when we feel so lost trying to stay on our path. I’ve crossed into paths that didn’t belong… Continue reading Follow Your Arrow