What a busy few weeks it’s been. It’s been almost 2 weeks since I gave my last Ian update. It feels like it’s been longer than that, and yet, my days are running together. If I wasn’t counting down the days until we can bring him home, I don’t know that I would know what day it is. Speaking of… Continue reading Ian Update
It’s been 40 days since Ian has been home. 40 days of learning to be patient. 40 days of learning how to not let anxiety completely take over our lives. Living day by day. And when that became too much, living moment by moment. But are we living? Or are we currently surviving? I think it’s the latter, but life… Continue reading Ian Update: Rehab
What a week it’s been. So many emotions. So much pain and fear felt. But also so much gratitude. And so many tears of joy were shed this week. Things started feeling like they were actually trending in the right direction. We’ve been told that Ian has been for the last couple weeks, but it never felt that way. Seeing… Continue reading Ian Update
It’s October. Normally our family’s favorite month. We all enjoy fall, doing fall activities, and the kids enjoy “spooky season.” We like going up to the mountains on a nice weekend to see the leaves all changing colors. Normally by now we start planning our traditional October weekend beach trip. But this year, instead, we’re planning Ian’s recovery. We’re planning… Continue reading Ian Update
The Universe has a funny way of teaching us the lessons we need to learn throughout our life. I’ve always been a believer that things happen for a reason, even if we don’t know that reason. The hardships come in and show us what we lack. The blessings come in to show us what to be appreciative of. Light cannot… Continue reading The Value of Patience
It’s been one week since our world once again got turned upside down. It feels weird to write on my blog with everything that’s going on, but there is literally nothing I can do for my sweet boy right now. I feel helpless. And as a mother, that is the absolute worst feeling. It’s supposed to be my job to… Continue reading Ian Update
9.14.22 I don’t think today’s appointment has hit me yet. It wasn’t something that was on my radar as a possibility, so I think I’m still processing it. Ian was diagnosed with DNET brain tumors back in July of 2019. Fast forward to now, September 2022, we have always been told Ian’s tumors are low grade, which means they grow… Continue reading Ian Update: Surgery
Think back to what your life looked like last year. I’d be willing to bet some things have changed. But I think that’s the wonderful thing about life. We are constantly adapting and changing, whether that would be for the better or the worst. Sometimes tragic things happen, and we are forced to adjust to our new normal. Sometimes we… Continue reading The Difference a Year Makes
I’ve been trying to find a place. A place I can finally put down my shield. Take off the armor. And do so safely. My heart wants to run through an open field. But my mind is stronger. It tells me I can’t. The noise in my head is very, very loud. And I tell it to quiet down. It… Continue reading Me Against Me
This past January began a new career journey for me. I embarked on this journey after realizing I was truly miserable in my then-current position. At the time, I was working the front desk at a cancer center. This position is an emotionally and mentally draining one as you see hundreds of sick people coming, fighting for their lives. I… Continue reading How to Survive Working From Home With a Little One